*at the ADHD wizard meeting* sometimes i just find it difficult to hocus-focus
have you tried abracadadderall?
it’s a material component for spells requiring Concentration
worst part of adulthood so far is definitely the fact that people have the ability to contact me and i have to respond in a timely manner
So I've been thinking about this post by @thethirdromana about why Jonathan describes the fabrics in his rooms as being good quality and condition, but the drapings in the wing he enters today as being old, dusty, and eaten by moths. I've seen a bit of speculation that either Stoker wasn't keeping track of his descriptions or Jonathan doesn't know the difference between good and bad quality linens, and while I get where this comes from, I don't think we're giving Stoker, or Jonathan, enough credit. Jonathan isn't exactly a textiles expert, but there is a very clear difference between curtains that moths have gotten to and curtains that they haven't, and that would be a huge inconsistency for Stoker to just "miss". I think this discrepancy was very intentional.
There's a couple of important things to note here. One, Dracula clearly doesn't want Jonathan in here. The door may not have been locked, but I think the count has made it pretty clear at this point that Jonathan is not supposed to be leaving his quarters. I'm guessing either Drac forgot this room was unlocked, or just assumed Jonathan wouldn't be strong enough to open the door (I doubt he has a good handle on how strong the average human is anymore). Two, the reader, and Jonathan, at this point is discovering how much of a facade Dracula's hospitality is. Jonathan is ostensibly a guest, but truthfully he is a prisoner, forced to follow his "host's" schedule and confined to basically two rooms. We now know the Count's kindnesses to be deceptions.
Which brings us to the intentionality of the musty drapes. I definitely agree that Dracula cleaned up the rooms he knew Jonathan would be staying in, but I think it was a deliberate choice on Stoker's part to show the Count's true colors. The hospitality is a performance, and the comforts of Jonathan's bedroom are no more a genuine depiction of his host than Drac's initial friendliness. Additionally, Jonathan comments that his own rooms have been tainted by the presence of the Count, and yet he finds these dusty old rooms comforting. I think this is meant to show that our friend has seen past the deception, and the ugly truth of this castle's nature is far more tolerable to the false comforts of his own rooms.
Im now picturing touch sensitive autistics just feeling a fabric and thinking. "Omg this feels like horrendous city planning i CANNOT wear this!"
people are so used to online content being curated for their consumption that they forget tumblr isn’t like that… this is my diary. I don’t post for other people. if you find the stuff I post depressing or annoying or too much or u don’t agree or whatever whatever…. that’s fine it’s not For You? it’s for me. there is no audience I’m performing for. feel free to unfollow me if u don’t like, I’m not a carefully crafted online persona I’m a real person
This is terrible but today when I was playing volleyball outside with some friends one of their children (18 months) was sort of ambling around on his stumpy little toddler legs and so we were all trying to be careful and like not spike the ball onto the baby but then he wandered over to his father, who picked him up bc dad reflexes, and then the ball got passed over to the dad and he sort of had a no thoughts moment and instinctively used his child to smack the volleyball over to the next person. Like he just swung the kid and used his legs like a baseball bat. I'm never going to forget his face of premature regret mid baby-manuever right when he realized what he was doing AND the instant he realized his wife saw it happen. Anyway the baby was fine he didn't make contact with the ball all that hard and he was just mad his dad wouldn't use him as a club again but I had to sit down because I laughed so hard I cried.










